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Sunday, December 07, 2008

Home, Sweet - Blessed Home

So… by the Grace of Allah (Subhaanahu wa ta’ala) it has happened… I’ve embarked upon a dream, one that appeared surreal, but which I held so dear to my heart. After years of preparing; nurturing and training my soul for its spiritual journey, my physical one has now begun... alhamdulillah.
The look on my sister’s face as I hugged and kissed her goodbye was enough to break me… and it did. As much as I had tried to suppress the tears, denying myself the right to release any emotion, there and then my attempt to ‘hold-strong’ suddenly burst forth, stubbornly refusing to withdraw. I knew what my leaving meant, but hadn’t really internalised its reality, until now. I was making hijrah, migrating for the sake of my Beloved (Subhaanahu wa ta’ala), to a land I had only ever dreamt about and marvelled at, but with deep-rooted love in my heart. The land of Tawheed – where I hoped to embark upon the next phase of my journey and to achieve what may not have been possible whilst remaining in the country I had always known as ‘home’.
And yet ironically, in my heart of hearts I knew there was another home… another place that I yearned to migrate to, longed to reside in and aspired to make a part of me… the home of the two sacred cities – where The country where the House of my Lord remained.
Departing from my beloved family and dear sisters and friends made me realise their true beauty and significance in my life. They have made me who I am and what I stand for. Allah (Swt) brought them to me and me to them for a purpose known only to Him (Swt) Alone. I am forever thankful for that, but only sorry that I hadn’t the wisdom to realise their worth long before. How often it is that we take for granted the blessing and jewels bestowed upon us, whether people or possessions, only to one day realise that the beauty of what we sought was all the while evident in what we had.
Those aspects of my life will remain apart of me and my continual journey, insha’Allah. So, as heartbreaking as it all was and as much as my eyes wept like a baby, this – my new life, new hopes and new aspirations - I never want to lose -insha'Allah.
As difficult as it was: leaving my loved ones, I knew, and took great comfort in the fact, that none of these things really mattered – not the people nor the possessions - for they were merely meant for Allah’s (Swt) Sake Alone: a means of seeking His (Swt) Pleasure, as an aid and guide to seeking nearness to my Lord (Swt).
So, as I settle and adjust to my new life, the words of my new companion resonates in my mind… ‘can you believe that after so many years… we’re finally home’.
SubhaanAllah, yaa ukht - I couldn’t have said it any better myself, wa- alhamdulillah.

4 comments:

bintyaqub said...

Assalamu alaykum

so that text was not a dresm!

Umm T! I am so happy that you have been able to complete such a awe inspiring dream. May Allah bless you in your new life, and continue to increase you in emaan and taqwa. May we be reunited soon.

Keep us in your duas, my dearest ukhti!

bintyaqub

Umm Thameenah said...

Wa 'alaykum salaam wrwb!

Dear bint Yaqub...

Nope, the text wasn't a dream! Alhamdulillah.

Jazaakillah khair ukhti and ameen to your du'a. May Allah (Swt) rejoin us in the best of places, stations and situations, and if not in this dunya... in the best of abodes - Jannatul Firdaws, ameen Allahumma, ameen.

My love and du'as yaa ukhti - and keep in touch, insha'Allah!

Fi-amaanillah
Umm T
-x

Quratul Ayn said...

Assalamu-alaykum.w.w. My dearest ukhti,

I've just had the time to read your blog now and as always you bought tears to my eyes. Subhan'Allah how dear you are to me and how I miss you...but indeed as you have stated, everything in this dunya has a purpose and its ultimate goal is Allah swt. May the new part of you journey be a means for you to complete the one you had already begun and may you be able to achieve the goals that you set out to achieve. Indeed it is only when we are faced with the reality of a situation that we actually feel the depth of it's joy or pain. May Allah swt bless you in this hijrah for His sake and may you continue to be most successful in this world and in the aakhirah. Please remember us all in your dua'.

Love you fillah my dear ukht,
Fi amaanillah
Quratul Ayn

Umm Thameenah bint Luqman said...

Wa 'alaykum salaam wa rahmatullaahi wa barakaatuh,

My dear sis...

May Allah (Subhaanahu wa ta'ala) rejoin us in the best of places; situations and states, ameen. I miss you and my dear beloved akhawaat more than you can imagine.

Truly this life is a journey: one of continuous arrivals and departures at various states and stations, with the honoured gift of capturing pearls and precious jewels along our blessed way...

May The One for Whom you love me, Love you ukhti, ameen.

Ana uhibbuki jiddan fillah.
Fi-amaanillah,
Your sis, always, insha'Allah.
-x-