Like a grain of rice amongst others in the pack,
Like a blade of grass amidst the splendid greenary,
Like a twinkling star glowing in the vastness of the galaxy,
Like a washed over pebble surrounded by a billion others. . .
The feeling is one of utter loneliness.
Over the past week, I have lived and experienced a sense of loneliness that I never quite imagined could exist. As a result of certain decisions that had to be made, this time last week I was packing away the last few items into my travel bag, ready to travel to the next station of my journey to Allah (Swt). But the realisation that I was actually leaving my family for a short period of time, didn't dawn on me until I arrived at my new, temporary abode.
Without a doubt this experience has and, Insha'Allah, will continue to do me a great deal of good. I came to realise how much I dearly loved and missed my family, never truly realising or appreciating their essence. But even more profound, I realised my spiritual weakness and how much I completely and utterly needed the aid and assisstance of Allah (Swt) - our Lord. The sad feeling that almost ruined me was the moment of thinking that Allah (Swt) was no longer protecting me, supporting me and no longer. . . loved me, subhaanAllah, such a feeling is truly destructive.
AlhamduLillahi Rabbil 'alameen, after speaking to one of my dear and beloved companions fillah - who reminded me about the tricks of the shaytaan, I decided I had no choice but to continue to strive, and if it meant struggling, then struggling to fight against his willingness to attack me whilst being by alone. After getting off the phone with my dear companion fillah, I knew what I had to do. I ran to my Lord faster than the shaytaan could even realise and filled my heart with His Remembrance - Allahu Akbar, it felt as though the exact feeling I had lost, came rushing back to me, alhamduLillah.
But how could I let such a thing happen? Why did I allow the shaytaan to attack me with his weapons? And where were mine?
The fact of the matter is; the shaytaan is perched upon the hearts of the believers, just waiting...
He wants nothing more than a single moment of absent mindedness to attack, for that's all he needs. So why do we allow for him to steal such a precious moment, sufficient to destroy everything we have with our Beloved (Swt)?
- We know who our enemy is - but don't realise the extent of his hatred for us.
- We've been shown our weapons - but fail to use them correctly and as often as we should.
- We have our nutrition and vitamins - but do not take them as often as we need.
- Our safe refuge is presented before us everyday - but we simply fail to protect ourselves with it.
Be on your guard and know that the shaytaan has nothing, absolutely nothing over the sincere servants of Allah (Swt), for those that remember Allah (Swt), Allah (Swt) Remembers them, causing the shaytaan to flee.
The battles we have fought against the shaytaan have been numerous, but will only increase by the day: At times the shaytaan may win some battles, whilst we lose some and at other times we will win some and the shaytaan will lose. So, as long as you continue to live, continue to fight against your enemy with all that you have; for it matters not how many battles you lose against the shaytaan - our true enemy, as long as at the end, you do not lose the war.
