Has it ever amazed you? . . . The Magnitude of Allah (Swt)? Have you ever stopped to just contemplate and ponder over it?
For a while I've appreciated The Magnificence and Greatness of Allah's (Swt) Hikmah; His incomprehensible Hikmah, that encompasses all things. And although I’ve simply accepted the decree of my Lord, unfortunately that hasn't always been with a content heart; nevertheless I’ve always accepted it. Now, however, not only is it an essence that I've come to truly appreciate, but it is one that I have completely grown to love.
As I sit writing these words, it occurs to me that they are nothing more than a precious glimpse of the feelings and emotions that have rendered my heart intoxicated - with love.
How many married sisters remember the day they glanced over at their husband and realised in that single moment, that they were in love? And how many sisters remember the day they gave birth and the love and happiness that filled their hearts? Although these examples are realities of life, the true love that I speak of is one that fills all hearts, without an atoms weight being left untouched.
Imagine being kept awake as a result of such an immense love. Imagine having your mind filled for every second of your waking moment, with thoughts of The One that fills your mind. Imagine losing major desires, due to them being suppressed by your Beloved; to the extent that water no longer quenches your thirst, food no longer feeds your hunger and oxygen no longer feels like the most significant matter for one’s heart.
Imagine being so in awe of Someone that you want nothing more than to be with The One with Whom you are in love. This feeling is one that has illuminated my heart, mind and soul, to the extent that nothing else matters anymore, absolutely nothing, except Allah (Swt). For I have come to realise and understand exactly what it is that my heart and soul have been missing, thus how can I possibly resist?
This feeling; the pinnacle of my happiness and the abode of my heart, sometimes makes me feel insane – positively insane. And as if that were not enough of a rahmah, the fact that it has been specifically decreed by my Beloved (Swt) - Himself, only but increases my love for Him.
So sincerely ask yourself: Have I ever truly been in-love? If so, you'll know that such a feeling is one that cannot truly be described. It's a feeling so profound that words simply have to do without, a realisation so intense that comprehension seems too inconceivable and an honour so great that it renders it beyond worldly belief.
‘There is a servant who has left his own soul behind, who is attached to his Lord’s remembrance, who is steadfast in fulfilling His rights; who looks to Him with his heart, his heart burning with the lights of His Divine awe. Allah Has purified his draught that he has drunk, from the cup of His Divine Love. The All-Mighty Has raised for him the veils of the Unseen. When he talks, it is for the sake of Allah; when he utters, it is about Allah; when he moves, it is by the command of Allah; when he rests, it is with Allah. He is for Allah, by Allah, with Allah.’
[Ibn al-Qayyim (rahimahullah) from Abu Bakr al-Kattani, sited in ‘The Exquisite Pearl: The journey to Allah & The home of the Hereafter’, p.10.]